Mood:  on fire

my world is changing my dream is on the horizon like the first morning star seeing it before the dawn of reality breaks it open in its full glory,

the night has been so long and restless dreams and nightmares crashing my head...is the dawn really there? will i see it? or is the just another dream to turn garrish before i wake...it all seems so real the swelling in my chest that chokes into my throat...sometimes it feels like love and the joy is the best i've ever known...sometimes it twists like noose being tightened to strangle me only it's on the inside....i can't take it off and anyway this dream has been going on for a long time and i can't always turn it...i love this part...the part where you came in when you are with me it gives me peace and joy and hope...but it also gave me the rope inside my neck and all i can do is trust you not to hang me...i love you so much in this sleep...so much